Making Peace With Your Past!
by Carol Yasin
Getting out of your past, hard to describe, isn’t it. Last week, when I was returning home from my office, in a mini-bus, I had ten minutes to let my mind wander into some of its own thoughts. As I was watching out through the window, I saw a girl standing with a bag and waiting for bus. I thought myself, that she should be a student in a college. As soon as I thought of the word ‘college’, my thoughts went back to my college days. It rolled to and fro from my school days to college days and then my days when I started my career.
All of a sudden, this incident came to my mind. When I was in my 3rd standard, I was in my grandmother’s house doing my schooling. I was so close to my grandfather, so at home, I would follow him everywhere. He had a habit of smoking, and whenever I see him smoke, I would be thinking – What would be it like to smoke? (ha ha – I feel like laughing out loud now when I was typing this). So, one day when he dropped the cigar once, and when no one was noticing, I picked it up and tried it out. Believe me, that was my first and the last time – I coughed then and throwed it away and felt sad for my grandfather – “Why is he smoking which doesn’t add favour to his life?”
This was just an incident – an incident of 5 minutes – which took my night off – I was into guilt that I did something wrong out of my mind and I couldn’t come out of it. This made me to think of so many incident of my school life – the days I have lied – the days I have took my uncle’s pen without him knowing it – It started with small life events and ended up with big life events where I haven’t stood at the right place.
Sadly, too often we allow the evil “accuser of the brethren” (Rev. 12:9-10)to continually remind us of our past sins. Like the prosecuting attorney in the courtroom of our conscience, he cries “What about this?!?” or “What about that?!?” And, if we listen to his pointed reminders, soon we’ll find ourselves cowering down in guilt instead of standing firm on Grace. And there I was. Many of you would have been in that position and still in that position! That’s why it’s important for us to take God at His Word. The devil is a liar who longs for everyone to spend an eternity in hell with him. “Like a roaring lion he goes about seeking whom he may devour” (I Pet. 5:8). Don’t worry. We have someone Who has win our case.
Atonement – Cleansed and covered – Even though God writes down all of our sins, thankfully Jesus’ Blood blots out those grievous transgressions. And, even though He knows everything about us,He’s chosen to “pass over us when He sees the blood” (Ex. 12:23), which for us is Jesus’ Blood on the Cross.
Much more then, having now been justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him. For if when we were enemies we were reconciled to God through the death of His Son, much more, having been reconciled, we shall be saved by His life. And not only that, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received the reconciliation.
When Christ enters the heart through the New Birth, He becomes our “Advocate” (I Jn. 2:1). And, like a defense attorney in a courtroom, He approaches the Judgment Bar and says to the Judge—which, in this case, is Almighty God, His Father—“Your Honor, before passing sentence on my guilty client, I would ask You to examine the Book of Crimes. You’ll see that there’s a Seal on it with My client’s name, a date and the word ‘Pardoned.’ You’ll also noticed that the Signature there is Yours. And, as You know, no one can be retried on that for which they’ve been pardoned.”
“Case dismissed!” the Righteous Judge says.
“You’re free to go,” He adds.
And, out of the Courtroom you go. . .knowing you were “guilty as charged”. . .but pardoned, not paroled. No longer do you have to let the evil one remind you of your past sins when they’re no longer present, ongoing sins; instead, you point to the Blood, knowing “your conscience has been cleansed from dead works so you can serve the living God” (Heb. 9:14).
And He says that He will not remember it anymore (Jeremiah 31:34). If He’s forgiven and forgotten them, who are we to keep bringing them back up?
Does this describe your experience? Have your past sins been “cleansed and covered?” Or, are you still continuing in them or allowing yourself to be reminded of them if you’ve truly turned from them? If so, isn’t it time to agree with God and say “I’m forgiven; now I’m also going to forget them??”
Why not spend a few minutes quietly singing “Amazing Grace” and “Grace That Is Greater Than Our Sins?” Then, why not spend a few more minutes thanking the Heavenly Father that He is a forgiving and forgetful God?” Then, as you head out for the day, ask Him to lead you to someone else who’s also shackled with sin and guilt. Tell him/her how he/she can also be forgiven and freed. Oh how wonderful it is when Heaven “rejoices over one sinner who repents” (Luke. 15:10).